天空下起雨了
他撑的伞
在你的身边陪着

可是我不快乐
因为看见
他脸上的笑
是很勉强的

我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变得复杂
我很想爱他
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

爱情是模糊的
可怜的是
没有勇气选择
如果再舍不得
这样下去
我们每个人
都是受害者

当爱情陷在危险边缘
是否都会伤痕累累
是否都会苦不堪言
爱情教会我们都放不下

By TWINS - 我很想爱他
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知足
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怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来
风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

才发现笑着哭最痛wo…如果你快乐再不是为我

知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

By MayDay(五月天)
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Hey my blog's not dead... Just that recently thr's simply nth to blog abt...

Oh okay, i got a haircut.. ): but it sux. Its screwed man. Hmm shaven sides, spiky top (screwed), layered back (screwed) and curly fringe(imba screwed)... So only the sides are ok since there is hardly any hair left there. Haha. The spikes aint spiky maybe becos my hair is curly, and i look totally like an indian with this hairstyle... hate it. The back is oso too thin and it curls outward 0.0 Tho its shufu but it looks ugly...simply ugly. It sounds like my usual hairstyle, but it simply looks uglier. Uglier than anything u've seen man. Srsly...

Hmm other than this cant think abt anything to blog le.. Hmm will post again when i've any topics. Heh.
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Yo was big walk rehearsal ytd, i think.. heh. Hmm was kinda high when we're back in sch and before the rehearsal starts. Was rather bored during the rehearsal, and freaking HIGH after the rehearsal. Haha.

Before rehearsal was setup mics, test mics, all those. So kinda fun. We wre talking abt playing bball but after we setup then it was rehearsals, no time yet. During the rehearsal, there was nth to do. I was kinda bored so wanted to play bball. At first only me and foong wan play, but under my bugging, we all went except melissa. :p Haha jess looked totally tired. Haha i made some shots with one hand, my left hand seems kind of faulty. Came back to hall after abt half an hour, sweating like crazy... Not long after, we went to setup mic stands, 2 in the middle of the hall, 4 on the stage. Wah jess open the mic stand so fast and the contrast btween me and her was HUGE! I was like asking her to slow down haha.

After rehearsals was packing, and halfway i went to help someone from other cca :p Haha ps jess!! Sry sry ._. hmm was freaking high for the packing and became more hardworking i guess. Haha. Then mdm ang treated us to bubble tea!! Nice PAssion fruit milkshake. :D Hmm then went for dinner with yj and yz. Then went home. Perhaps i was too high, felt damn shag on the train and after i got home... too old to high all the way.. Haiz.

Hmm was trying to find people go job with me, but kinda failed... No one's going... Haiz. Hmm i'll post again soon!!
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Haiz i have such a sad life.. It's not much diff from no life man. Its so boring at home. There's practically nth i can do at home when i dun play bball, when msn has hardly anyone to chat with, with i finished hotshots, when maomao's not home for dota, and when i am too broke to go anywhr for shopping.

There is only these few stuff i do at home this few days... msn, sms, bball and dota ai... Haiz so freakin boring. i think i nid to go for the job interview quick. If i still dun find a job, im gonna rot like anything else..

And i freakin wanna dye my hair. Hope tml is the last day of PA for now, then at least i dun have to go back to sch and i can dye my hair!! And i wanna change my hairstyle, kinda bored with this le, asked ard for suggestions but most ppl say dunno... shud i try shaving away one side of my hair and leave the other side longer? Im afraid it will look funny.. I wan rebond!!! My curly pong pong hair is getting on my nerves!! Grrrr... but no way am i gonna shave botak man. Why gujunpyo de hair so curly so shuai then mine... Haiz... Bu Gong Ping!! If only i have straight hair i bet i'll look much better..i guess :P

Oh toking abt hair, heng at chalet nv slp much. Esp nv move my head much when i slp. Cant imagine letting everyone see how my hair looks like everyday when i wake up... They'll think the chalet exploded.. heh..

Hmm this post is kinda crappy, but pls forgive me.. im just too bored..
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Hmm went to watch 2012 today with my cousins and uncle and auntie. Hmm quite a nice movie. The effects were great!! Eh sry sqdmates for not watching wit u guys, hmm next time we watch another one tgt ok?? Dun be angry k? Sry sry...

Hmm a song came to my mind that day and ive been wanting to search for this song. And today, i finally rmbed to find it. Its a freakin old song called 当你 by Cyndi. Here's the lyrics, and enjoy the song!!

当你
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如果有一天
我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错

如果有一天
我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你吵
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好

当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
好喜欢你知不知道

如果有一天
梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远
你是否还会记得今天

如果有一天
我们都发觉
原来什么都可以
无论是否还会停留在这里

也许空虚让我想得太多
也许该回到被窝
梦里和相遇就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好
啦~ 啦~
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道
啦~ 啦~
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My hands been trembling for today... isit fatigue from chalet, or isit the tan te bu an de feeling...am i really overcomed by fear so easily?

Knew i got GCME since the chalet as so many ppl were using wi-fi to check their combi. Just went to download a copy and realised not much ppl took GCME, and most of them are strangers to me... Only 43 took geog if im not wrong. Expected leetheng to get GCME too but she got e-lit. Qixin got e-lit too. Lols. 1 less fren in the same class, and in fact a close fren to me... Haiz. Wanted to blog abit more abt chalet and some other stuff but not in the mood now...

Everyone's considering abt their uni faculties, their future jobs and wadever thats far ahead. And what the fuck am i doing??? I'm merely thinking abt next yr? Can i even pass next yr? I dun wanna face the kind of almost-failing and fear-of-retaining feeling again and even act like im confident of passing to cheer others up. No way. Sec 2 was a trauma to get 1.9 gpa till the last day i got 2.0. Yr 3 was borderline of abt 2.3, and yr 4, worse. 2.8 throughout the yr and 3.1 on the last day. WTF AM I DOING??!! im so damn fucking confused now... That feeling is gross!! All i can wish for is to stop thinking abt this but is it even possible....

One word to describe all that im thinking...SIAN. Two words to tell all im thinking...F OFF...
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Woots class chalet was fun!!! So nice!!

Eh 3 days 2 nites, but 1st day we went in quite late and it was practically raining the whole day, and we could hardly do anything. First day was quite boring since there was nth much to do with so little people. They were gambling, either mahjong or bridge, but i knew none.. lols. Learnt to play "In between" and its actually fun and easy. So entertaining!! Went ard the park with the whole grp at midnight and sang the way back. So fun!! The guys wanted to go red house but me and some hum de all decided to just go back to chalet. The night was boring with half the population slping and nth to do. Went strolling with chengli and early morning 4+...haha.

2nd day morning 6+ almost 7, they decided to go LAN. i didnt want to go at first cos its a waste of money when i can hardly do well in any games. But then decided to go try L4D. Wah it was a total GG man. I nearly fainted la...1 day no slp + motion sickness... Wah 1st person games srsly kill me lorh. and they also played CS. So i decided to go back alone... Oh yar on the way out, we were toking abt ppl left behind in the chalet... Zhaiyang, leetheng and boo... Hahaha so suspicious...We were even saying zhaiyang was gonna become a dad!! Hahaha. Hmm played arcade after lunch, and realised my arcade bball was considered quite pro for those who went. Haha i solo challenge yujie and won!! Won all the time haha!! Daytona was fluctuating. Sometimes near last sometimes 1st, but it seems that its always the 2nd game that i can get 1st. My first try at pool too!! FUN!! but i sucked at it. Went strolling with huisee in midnight cos there was nth for me to do, and slping is just so boring. Had a nap of abt 40min b4 that and woke up with blurry eyes..haha. Lols the two of us walked very slowly and took very long...so scandalous...haha jkjk. We went back to chalet and realised zilie and gloria oso gone... So scandalous too...jkjk. When they come back, they like stunned. Zilie say they went out trying to look for me and huisee to probably stroll tgt bah... Haha and huisee slp so funny, she nid something against her forehead... so funny.

Third day watched Paranormal activity or something, then at first it sucks, only towards the back its abit scary. Wasnt as scary as i had imagined, according to wad leetheng said. Heh. Yujie is like mao mao too...haha. Oh yar this chalet got alot classes similar period, got 4a, 4j, 4l too. And aft chalet went to bball with zilie, zhiwei and weeteck. Wah so damn tired but worth it since i longed for bballing during the chalet, but it rained like hell, no bball, and no courts...

Eh overall the chalet was nice, with very nan2 de2 de stay awake overnight experience and midnight strolling..haha. Gonna look forward to more of such chalets!!

When can 4f have a chalet tgt ever again?
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没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律

听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定

Cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音

没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴

你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记

Cause i believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你

Oh i believe
Cause i believe那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星总会有发光的原因

Oh i believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

*by Show Luo Zhi Xiang, "Cause i believe" also "幸福不灭".
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Guys when serious are most charming?
Does it apply to all and only guys?
Is that why im not charming at all?

Why people never give a second look?
Isit that you're too good-looking and they are shy?
Isit that you dun even worth a second look?

Why do you always fail?
Isit that failure is the mother of success?
Isit that you're born to fail?

So many why's and can you even noe what applies to you?? Never. Give it a serious thought...
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Ooh hot shot is nice!! Addicted to it. So far just reached ep12, but srsly is nice. Must Watch!!! Inspiring sia. Haha.

Main characters are Yuan DaYing (Show Luo), DongFang Xiang (Jerry), and WuJi Zhun (Wu Zhun). Hmm just a rough storyline so far...
Daying sucked at bball, but thinks he is very pro. Xiang is very pro. Zhun records their matches and learns their moves, pro too. Xiang was almost kidnapped by some strangers and Daying help him. Daying was severely injured, even the doctor say it was a miracle for him to walk all the way to the hospital. He endured through and Xiang promised to teach him bball.

Some memorable scenes...
-Daying didnt have money to buy flowers for Jie er, so he made a hundred using toilet paper. On the way to finding her, it started raining, so he ran in the rain all the way to her hostel, just to see her leave in Xiang's car..
-Daying treated a puo lan bball court that Jie er recommended like treasure. He spent one whole day clearing, and was even clearing at midnight in the rain. Jie er came to help him and they cleared the court together over the night, in the rain, til the next morning...
-Daying spent 10k booking a cafe and wanted to have a candlelit dinner with Jie er. But jie er turned down his offer after Xiang confessed to her...

So many nice scenes in the show!! The matches were even nicer!! But the matches hard to describe, must watch then understand the kind of ganjiong yet must be calm feeling... Woah!!
Haha, seriously, its a must watch!!!!!!!!! I go continue, hopefully can finish it asap!! So envious of Jie er, got 2 shuai ges going aft her. So jealous of Daying too, got 2 mei nvs after him too. And somemore is student union president and even his coach!!! O.o

Heh heh. I go cont le, go watch too!!!
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Wah this few days are seriously bored man. The next thing i can look forward to is class chalet but its one week later!! Thats freakin long later. Gonna watch Hot Shot (lan qiu huo) on youtube as much as possible since i peeped at the last match that day and it was awesome. Inspiring eh!!

So cool. The black parts drawn make him look sort of devilish, i used to draw them, as in not on my face but on paper. Similar design but not as cool. Red eyes were the dream colours of my eyes cos very shuai qi, but now i'd prefer blue or purple to get a dreamy feeling~ Haha.

Hmm ok i go try watch Hot Shot le, if the quality sux then i go borrow from Mao!! Haha. Buhbyes!!

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Haiz been rather bored this few days. O level higher chinese is tml, and ater tml im FREE!! Gonna find a flexible job, and hopefully i can.

Maybe i shud have kept myself occupied over this few days, or maybe i did, just to keep myself from thinking of you. Tho i said i shall stop loving you, my brain has ceased to function according to my will. Images of you flood my brain and everything, all those memories of you just come back rushing. It was hard to pick it up, but it's even harder to put it down now... My heart simply grows fonder and fonder of you every single day.

"why shld we wait for things that we knw will just end up being a disappointment?" - Jesslyn

At least for now, it makes sense to me...
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Kbox was sooo fun!!!

Went to kbox wit gloria, zhiying and yujie. So fun la, cos little ppl so we sang longer, and normally is 4 hrs but today 5 hrs, shiok. Dad longbang me to eat breakfast at 8am. Had wanton mee and ice milo! O.O 8am worh, so full... Then went to sch to submit subject combi form. After all that went kbox at clementi.

While they were booking the room, i and yujie were playing photo hunt. :p Then after that gloria and zhiying joined. haha but we soon died. Hmm so went singing. The song i put in most effort was wu neng wei li by shi xin hui. Wah sing till i almost faint la, so freakin high. Eh wuding was nice with gloria, but the original singer sux, its wu zhong xian. Dun have jay de version, then so emo la, wu zhong xian sing like comedy la. Even his face is such a joke, so we turned off the original singer ><

Hopefully can go again someday during the holidays!! Oh had Fromage, so deliiiiiciousssssssss!!!
Haha ok post agn when im free. :))
Buhbyess!!
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Lols experience a weird rain today.. Hmm was walking home from jp, and felt some raindrops, so i tot are those left on the leaves of trees and then wind blow so they come falling off, but it got heavier and heavier... I could clearly see the rain was drizzling quite heavily and some ppl started running. But in like 30 sec, the rain stopped.. wth?? Was that a prank?? The sky didnt even turn dark, it remained just as clear... a once in a blue moon occurence i bet, or at least to me...

Hmm went for PA meeting this morning. Yujie say those who wan bball come at 8.15, and i reached at 8.10, with no one there...0.0 He reached at 8.30 -.- Hmm went bball til past 9 (meeting was supposed to be at 9) and realised that meeting change time to 9.30 cos some ppl cant make it in time. Heard jesslyn stuck in a traffic jam for 2hr 15min. I would have puked... Hmm meeting wasnt as serious as i tot it may be, and we tried to pack some stuff tho i hardly did anything...so ps... Hmm then went lunch and sang inside ctrl room til everyone was leaving... Haha jesslyn's singing not bad, man2 hao3 ting1 de. Lols. She persuaded us to stay in hall for some reason...Heh heh heh...Secret!! Haha. Then went home.

So sian... Oh yar saw boo and lt and brenda. Eh nth much le, oh and tried to carry one speaker of stage pass or something? i dunno wad it is called?? 0.0 Hmm quite heavy, if straighten my arm then very low, if i bend my arm then very suan...haiz. And the mic wire was gross!! FREAKIN BLACK!! eeww... Haiz wanted to bball aft the thing de, but then rained... Haiz then whole bball court freakin wet so went ctrl room.

Eh nth do le... Oh can go back on 20th and 24th i think. Heh 2 more days occupied :D
Hmm srsly nth to crap abt le... T^T

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEETECK!!

Going off...buhbyes!!
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Hmm hols seems quite busy with events clashing. Got o levels, got PA stuff altho its little, got chalets, outings and even nid to find a job. How to find a job at this rate???

Hmm still quite free before o levels, since i cant get a job before its over. So went to play freerice. Its a website recommended by ms selina chong, whr u will have to answer mcq questions regarding the meaning of words. For each question correct, the UN or something will donate 10 grains of rice to poor countries or something lidat. Not too sure. But its a meaningful game. At first i tot the game gonna be quite boring but i actually got addicted XD Go to freerice.com to try it, helps improve english too...hopefully.

Haven sms her for a few days... Yujie encourages me to do it but my brain simply tells me dun be stupid...nth will come out of it... Haiz. Oh played msn bowling with yujie and weeteck ytd. Won both. Haha. It's fun srsly. Or maybe im too bored so everything seems fun to me... Haiz ytd mao cant use com so couldnt dota wit him...hopefully he today can use la...

So many wishes for the day, but wonder which will come true...
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Hmm ppl, i tried to make a pic for 4f...tho its quite ugly...sry!! No copyrights, so if anyone appreciates my ugly piece can just copy..

This is one without names...


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Woah hols are here but im dying of boredom..quite bored at home, esp when no one's on msn, no one chats with me, no sms, no games, wahhhh its killing me!!!

Oh still cant bear to eat my laoma's hello panda..Haha. Hmm cant dye hair yet, cos still got o levels. Went to check price for black colour hair spray and it costs 10+. wth. Even my permanent dye only like 9 bucks la. Haiz. Played unupdated dota with mao ytd, so fun!! I wan a sqd outing or a class outing leh, so boring... I was supposed to organise a sqd outing but how am i supposed to do so when i dunno when they not free, wad they wanna do/ dun wanna do, time?? dates?? And i haven even find a job... Dun even wad job to find when i nid to take leaves for o levels, for outings, for chalets... Even if i skip outings, chalets' a must too...

Im rotting at home, and even if i go out, its wit my mum to very very close places like jp?? So rotting... Think my head gonna grow fungus sooner or later...anyone wan mushrooms?? 0.0

Eh this post is getting more and more random...nth to write. Im like so no life now...becoming a zai nan alr... T.T

Oh and subject combi. So far ppl i noe maybe taking gcme de got jiahao, weikiat, laetitia and leetheng. Anyone else?? Oh and wads the h1 subject??

Eh so worried abt subject combi and next yr's class... HAIZZZZ
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